hey soul sister...

Okay ladies and gentleman. I know that it has been quite a while, but I think I'm ready to get back into this. Man, I really wish that I could put everything in my head and heart here, but there is just no way. There just isn't enough time or space... in the WORLD. I really hate to do it, but I have to back track a little to the situation that I've been dealing with. That guy, you know, the one that I was in love with, the one that broke my heart, the one whom I trusted more than anyone, the one that was my best friend.... yeah that one. WELL, a few details, that I don't care to share, have led me to think that everything I knew was a lie. I feel like a complete fool... NOT COOL...

and can I just go ahead and interject here that if I hear "Need You Now" by Lady Antebellum ONE MORE TIME, I'm seriously going to go play in traffic.

Okay, maybe not literally, but I will definitely imagine myself doing so... I mean C'MON!!! Lady A. has a whole album of great songs, including their newest single "American Honey." This is my official petition to get "Need You Now" off the air. Feel free to sign/ comment this petition below. Okay, so enough of that. I just felt like I had healed so much, just to get pounded on again. Grrrr. Anyway, I should hate him, and as much as I want to, I just can't. I mean, he was my first love, and still is, and always freakin' will be... he seems to be moving on quite nicely... maybe he is just partying away the pain? I wish I could do that, but I just think. For some reason I keep focusing on all the great times we had together. Why does our brain do that? SO annoying. So yeah, I've been having nightmares/dreams about him, and the whole situation, for the past month... really the last 30 freaking days. And I can't seem to shake them. Some of them are SO real, I wake up confused or crying.

Some of them make me question EVERYTHING. Grrrr again. Luckily a Native American Festival was in town, so I stopped in to get a dream catcher.

Really guys, I was ready to try ANYTHING to get rid of these dreams. This isn't the one that I got, but just a visual. I actually got a purple one, I felt like it represented "me" a little more than the traditional ones. Well guys, I must say, it worked... for 2 WHOLE DAYS. 2 nights of well rest, then right back to the dreams. Dang it. Everyone is telling me that I should talk to someone about it, but I am literally SICK of talking about it, and I'm sure that everyone is SICK of hearing it. Maybe I should try acupuncture?

I don't know, just a thought. I've had a lot of those lately. SO! enough of those sad shenanigans. Okay team, I want to share a few of my last memories from my beloved Austin... which I miss SO much. My last week there was filled with activities that I had never done in the time that I was there... I felt like it was then or NEVER! One thing I had wanted to do was visit the famous HULA HUT. Chad and I had always talked about it, but never made it, luckily my friend Chelsea suggested it one day for lunch and I was DOWN!

So this was by far the most delicious thing I ate in Austin, and probably the worst for me too... yeah a STUFFED AVOCADO. (One of the MAIN reasons I now have a personal trainer.) They take an already delicious avocado, stuff it with chicken and cheese, then deep fry it. AMAZING. The whole time I was in Austin, I thought that I had to wait for the Thursday special at Chuy's, (Another great restaurant that owns Hula Hut - I had no idea!) turns out I could have gotten it at Hula Hut ANYTIME I wanted!! Actually, it's probably a good thing that I didn't know that. Anyway, so in my defense, I was having a hard time... I went to Hula Hut the day after "it" happened. So I got this to wash it down...

This little beauty is called a HU-LA-LA. It is a giant fish bowl full of rum and fruity goodness. Made for two, but perfect for one broken heart. It was $15 smackers, but let me tell you- money well spent. Anyhow, if you ever go to Austin, you MUST got to Hula Hut, especially if the weather is nice, it's right on the water and SO fun! Another thing I did, was go kayaking on Town Lake. This made me sad because I went with a girl, who I didn't really get a chance to know, and we had the BEST time rowing around the lake, I really wish that I would have hung out with her more. Her name is Heather Hoot. Her name is so fitting to because she is literally a HOOT! She is SO funny and totally speaks her mind. I love her!

Here are some more pics from our rowing adventure!

Man, it is SO beautiful there in the spring... I MISS YOU AUSTIN!

So, the day before I have to leave rolls around, and it happens to be a Sunday... and what do Austinites do on Sundays??? BRUNCH, duh. So Chad and I went to the South Congress Cafe. we had also always talked about going there too. So we did, and I am SO glad that we did because it was DELICIOUS! Oh my gosh, more like TO DIE FOR! I had this monstrosity...

CARROT CAKE FRENCH TOAST... ONE WORD- AMAZING.

This was my last bloody mary made with Austin's finest Handmade vodka, Tito's. Good stuff. Okay so I just realized that this was our last meal together and I'm starting to get all emotional and sad, so I MISS AUSTIN.

END OF STORY.

Back to the now. So lately I have had a lot of down time, and other than thinking, I've been reading and catching up on the Netflix queue. (p.s. if you have any book or movie suggestions, please comment below. MUCHO APPRECIATED!) One good thing of being home, is that I live at the beach. (except for this whole oil spill thing, I'll get back to that in a minute.) So I have taken many-a-2 minute trips to the beach to read.

So far I have read,

After seeing the movie with one of my BFF's Rachel, I HAD to read the book, and like they always say, the book was much better. And speaking of Rachel, don't forget her giveaway... it's still going on, and anyone can enter, so don't miss your chance! Enter here and don't forget to mention that you came from my blog!

The Last Song also really inspired me to get back to playing the piano,

So I picked up the sheet music for Miley's song "When I Look At You," from the movie, and Sara Bareielle's "Little Voice" album music. I have really surprised myself with my reunion with the piano, sure I'm a little rusty, but I have picked it back up a lot faster than I had thought! Go me!

continuing on...

Okay, I just finished this book. It was recommended to me by NUMEROUS people, and when I

say people, I mean ALL my lady friends. And let me tell you, it was actually a GREAT book! A lot of great tips and hilarious stories. The best part was that I had originally thought that maybe I was a little crazy, but some of the stories in the book make me SO not crazy. That was a relief. I mean, WHOA, what some women do. I really hope that some of those stories were made up because a lot of them were really extreme. So yeah, be thankful that I'm not as crazy as I could be. I have a few other books under my belt right now, but I am open for more suggestions, I got some really great suggestions on facebook, but I would LOVE to have more! Here is what I got so far.

So I have been trying to get movies that I KNOW I will cry during, because, lets face it, I got a lot of tears that I NEED to get out!

Tear jerkers include;

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and let me tell you, these weren't just, "tear up a little" movies... these were down right BAWLING movies. They were perfect. However, in the middle, I did take a short break and picked up this comedy.

I hadn't intended on seeing it, because it just looked silly, but a good friend of mine, from that awesome city I've been mentioning, named Amanda, told me that it was a must see, and let me tell you, it really makes you THINK. And the more I thought about it, I think that I would actually like a world without lying. Trust would never be an issue, and lately that is what I'm having the most trouble with.

The latest movie I watched was Avatar, it was my third time watching it, and I still love it.

The technology is just SO amazing and so life like, it's a little creepy. I actually read somewhere about some condition that some people get after watching Avatar. Apparently some people watch the movie and because it is so euphoric, when they come out into the real world, they become depressed. It's crazy, but I kind of understand it, especially now after this whole oil

spill situation. The thought of it literally makes me sick. I just can't believe that this is happening... and to my home sweet home. I mean, I feel like, yeah Haiti and Katrina were both a huge crisis, but HELLO, this is a crisis too and we need major help. The water is EVERYTHING to this area from the fishing, to the tourism, we are talking EVERYTHING and the gulf coast is nothing without it. I mean this is SERIOUS, and I feel like it is not being tended to as well as it should be. Throwing chemicals, (which I secretly think is just Dawn dish soap,) on the oil is not going to make it go away, it's just going to disperse it which would make it worse in my mind. I wish we could just scoop it up, if only it were that easy. Where is George Clooney on this one...

I vote that he gets one of his famous telethons together ASAP. K thanks. And where are all the other celebrities? They always come running at any other crisis... but this one just seems to be ignored. WHATEVER. I know that I'm going to do everything that I can... I've already joined some volunteer forces... I wish that I could just wish it away. I'll keep working on that. You do the same.

Okay. only a few more things and then I swear I'll be done boring you with my life. So as you all know, I've had a lot of free time... blah blah blah. Free time = TV. My new favorite TV show is...

If you don't watch GLEE, then you HAVE TO START, like right now... go to www.fox.com/glee and catch up! I must admit, I didn't really like it at first, but then somewhere in the mix I became obsessed! It is the greatest show EVER. I love the music and the dramatics of their lives, AND I love Brittany. She is the stereotypical, dumb blonde cheerleader, and she, by far, has the BEST one-liners.

"Did you know that dolphins are just gay sharks?"

"I'm pretty sure that my cat reads my diary."

"When I pulled my hamstring I went to a massagonist"

"Hairography, you guys, it's like cool epilepsy."

if you aren't laughing... you just don't understand... WATCH IT.

and yeah, last season, I VOWED to myself that I was DONE with The Hills, however, after seeing the trailer for this season, I decided that I would watch the season premiere... more or so, I just wanted to see Heidi's face.

Let's just say it was SCARY.

Poor girl... she used to be so cute! Now she just looks... well... PLASTIC. I mean, if this is Spencer's doing then SHAME ON HIM. I just have no idea what could posses someone to do this kind of destruction. I guess I can't really talk because I've never done it, and they say it's addicting... but damn girl.

So anyway, WELCOME BACK TO MY LIFE. The Hills, is now back on my guilty pleasure list. Thank God this is the last season.

LAST BUT NOT LEAST.

This is my borrowed but new motto!

HAKUNA MATATA!

It means NO WORRIES!

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