Damn it, I'm a grown up.

Good Morning! So, I have come to the realization that I am a grown up. And that sucks. Meaning that I actually have to take care of my own problems, three letters.. U-G-H. I've also realized, as a writer, that I type and think waaaay too fast and that my English has been less than perfect in my past few posts. I tried to fix them, but I just can't fix my own words... I'll be happy to fix everyone else's and I usually do, but when it comes to my own, and my own voice... I like it to move fast, I like run on sentences (hence this one) and I like typing fast. It makes me feel powerful at the keyboard... like I own it. It's the only sense of power I feel I have right now so bear with me folks. Today I am on my trusty PC. I typically use a Macintosh but I thought I would give a big keyboard a try... so far so good. Just to let you know, I just switched back. Haha, the PC started doing that crazy write over crap. I know how to fix that in word, but in blogger...FAIL. So back to my crappy English, and crazy words. For those who know me probably understand all this perfectly... for the rest of you... you a S.O.L. My friend Rachel is having somewhat of an "individual rain cloud" day today, so I want to give her a shout out with a little bit of SUNSHINE!! LOVE YOU, GIRL!

BTW, (by the way) I'm listening to Pandora for the first time in a long time and I forgot how much I loved it! Matchbox 20 just came on...I still love them. So I haven't heard back from Senox, whom I was looking forward to hearing from, so I'm going to start applying for jobs again today. BLAH. What is it these people want? I AM EVERYTHING AND MORE!!! Sheesh. I'm going to invest in a book today, recommended by Rachel! It's called "The 5 Love Languages." by Gary Chapman.

You see, I'm confused in my relationship and I hope that this can somewhat help me. (WHAT? A CONFUSING RELATIONSHIP?? yeah, yeah I know.) I just took the assessment test and I am a "Physical Touch" kind of lover. Meaning I need touch to feel loved. Nothing wrong with that in my book. Who doesn't love a hug and/or kiss? I'll let you know how the book is, as I read it. I guess this being my first "relationship," everything is trial and error NOW for me... I haven't made the mistakes before and learned from them yet. I'm doing everything by the seat of my pants... FAIL. Hopefully this book will be a great $15 therapy session. Whatever. The sun is finally out today! But it's freaking COLD! I moved to Texas for a reason! I'm probably going to try and make it out to the park later. Chad is there now. We usually go together, but I decided that I'll just go alone later. No big. I finally caught up on all the American Idol auditions and I already have a few favorites! I'm interested in seeing Ellen during Hollywood week. I think that starts up tonight. I'm going to keep this short because I want to go ahead and get out of the house. I will try and write a little more later this afternoon! Have a fabulous day! I'll leave you with this picture I took at the park the other day.